Been sick for 3 days.. And tomorrow I am going back to work. Feeling so so so reluctant to get back. I'm losing heart to continue working on. Everyday I always find myself thinking why did I stay on? Well the benefits of the company isn't bad, but I just don't find myself fitting into the environment. I feel suffocated with tons of work.. 

Thinking back, the life I have during poly is one of the easiest that I've lived. All I have to worry is grades and friends and life. Now, I'm constantly stressed about work. I'm always being pushed to do things. Always feel frustrated about work due to my lack of knowledge. Always vexing on family issues. Sometimes it is hard to please and do what my boss wanted. I know I don't have to please anyone but I really want to do well. I know my boss is overloaded with things too coz our team is super short handed. 

All in all, I am unsatisfied with my life now. I want to have own free time to do whatever I like.. Even though I took "worklife balance" as one of my elective modules, however it doesn't help me much. Sigh... 命苦啊!