hmm..
thers lotz of ting which ii cant get any solution..
no matter how ii tink..
it juz don feels rite..
haiz..
ii dunno..
but..
derhx ting wat we r doin..
ii juz don tink tat it's derhx rite to do..
ii feel a strong sense of guiltiness..
its like..
we dunno whether tings r wat we thought..
n wat we r doin was juz hurtin *ta n our frenship in sum way..
ii don like to make assumtion to it..
it juz don seems rite..
ii dunno..
mayb uu all won even care wat ii feel..
juz..
go on wif ur life..
iim tired..
did uu noe iim cryin in derhx nite?
did uu noe iim feelin unstable?
did uu noe derhx feelins wher thers no one ard in derhx darkness..
did uu noe iim feelin bery scared?
ii reali scared tat ii will lose uu to #ta..
reali terrified tat ii will lose uu..
uu say tat we r still derhx same..
but..
derhx way ii c isnt derhx same anymore..
ii dunno..
its been pressurizin miie..
uu say tat ii muz bear wif it..
but..
ii muz bear wif it till when?
for infinity??
its tirin uu noe?
ii feel tat..
iim losin mae-self..