ah.. finally noe wat's happenin 2 mi.. all my happiness ish leavin mi.. my smile.. ish lesser den derhx past.. my tinkin.. ish no longer as simple in derhx past.. my mood.. ish no longer always cheerful like in derhx past.. all tis let mi concluded tat.. im changin.. my mood, my tinkin.. everyting change.. i dunno y.. i suddenly don wanna use my parents $$ anymore.. i juz wanna earn my own $$.. use my own $$.. but it doesnt seems like i can do it.. i don even hav a proper job.. if i always go out.. my dad n mum won b happy... i can sense tat.. i wish 2 stay at home.. but i cant brin myself 2 stay at home doin nth.. haiz.. i soo dunno wat happen 2 mi.. i swear now.. from now on.. i won anyhow spend $$ on tings.. i would try 2 stay at home.. i will save up my pocket $$ when sch reopen.. n i will oso save up derhx ang bao $$ i get durin new yr..