hi..
haiz..
bein banne from goin out..
its not tat ii cant go out at all..
but ii cant go out 2 places like yishun?
within walkin distance ish accepted onli..
haiz..
ii wanna faster find a job..
like tat ii can earn money
no need 2 ask money from parents..
hated to c their "lian(3) se(4)"
haiz..

hmm..
not feelin rite nowadays..
dunno whether ish mae problem or wat..
ish juz tat ii was not bein mae-self..
eh..
mood swayin ii guess..
dunno larhz..
in conclusion..
ii was not feelin rite..
if uu ask miie y ii was not feelin rite..
ii cant ans uu..
coz..
miie mae-self oso dunno wats wrong..
ytd nite suddenly hav mood swing..
hav a urge 2 ask victoria..
"m ii funny 2 laugh at?"
haha..
ii oso dunno y ii ask tis qns..
but no doubt ish tat ii felt hurt?
when all of uu laughin at miie..
once ish a while r acceptable..
but ii tink no one can accept it
when everyone was laughin at uu all derhx time..
no matter wat uu do wat uu shay..
it juz sho funny n toopid to them..
wats wrong bein derhx real miie?
ii keep shayin "xi guan jiu hao xi guan jiu hao"..
to mae-self..
in order not 2 allow mae tears to drop..
but sumtimes ish juz sho hard to ignore...
when derhx laughin sound keep repeatin in ur ears..
when everyone was shayin " haha.. uu sho toopid"
hey..
bein mae-self ish wrong?
ish not tat ii wanted it tat way..
mayb..
ish mae-self xiang bu kai..
but..
its not derhx 1st time..
for once..
ii did shay..
derhx feelin was juz another similar scene..
wher everyone stand ard uu..
shayin ur bad point..
critizin ur wrong..
comment on ur character..
tat feelin was juz sho...
hurt..
sho..
pain..
haiz..
ii don tink anyone will care..
haha..
hopefully..
ii reali can "xi guan jiu hao"...