To: sumone.. (uu noe hu uu r)

Well.. ii admit tat ii did tell sumone tat our frenship ish driftin apart.. in fact tat person oso feels like tat.. not onli mae-self.. even others sense sth wrong.. ii will not blame uu 4 buildin a barrier btween us.. coz ii noe uu r scared of gettin hurt.. but.. do uu tink tat ii can continuously keep hittin down barrier n enter ur world? ii doubt mae-self.. ii dunno whether ii can keep hittin down walls after walls without gettin mae-self hurt.. bout derhx "uu gt anyting 2 shay marhz?" tis case.. cant blame miie 4 replyin "orh.. den nth lerhz".. ii always try 2 find topic 2 shay.. 4 ii felt uneasy when conversation ish not made btween us.. but.. ii fear tat ur reaction would b cold.. ii dunno y but ii reali do cares bout ur reaction.. wo hen hai pa ni de leng mo dui dai.. yin wei ni de leng mo.. rang wo jue de zi ji shuo cuo hua huo ni bu xiang gen wo shuo hua... ii felt pressurise when uu reply "den?".. ii will auto shut up mae mouth n completely dunno wat 2 shay.. when everytime uu reply "den?" do uu noe tat ii felt abit hurt? well mayb uu dint notice but ii reali did felt abit sadness.. ii noe uu hav lesser time as uu r workin.. ii understand tat.. sho tat ish y ii don wan 2 request anyting which time n energy.. unless uu request lorhz.. n uu shay tat ii don wan tell uu tings.. ish not derhx case.. truth ish.. ii dunno wat do shay.. wo hen pa wo hui shuo cuo hua re ni bu gao xin.. mayb ish a hou yi zheng from all derhx teasin received in sch.. ii had a phoebia now.. in plain.. ii don like 2 b said(hu likes?) n ii don like derhx feelin tat ppl dislike miie.. sth like tat larhz.. ii oso dunno how 2 shay.. haiz.. also.. r uu shayin tat ii may NVR get 2 walk in2 ur world? if tat's derhx case.. den.. ii onli had 2 let go.. its tough fightin wif barrier which uu dunno y it ish ther... ii will try.. coz.. ii cant bear 2 let go.. thers one major problem which ii tink may trouble us more.. n tat ish.. derhx communication btween us.. pls.. ii don live in ur stomach.. ii hav no ideal wat uu wan or was tinkin.. seein uu bein pek chek when ii don understand wat uu was shayin makes miie pek chek oso.. ii don hav super powers.. ii cant read ur mind.. shuo chu wan zheng de xin qing huo xiang fa hen nan ma? yi ding yao jian duan lai jiang ma? ii noe tat sumtimes ii oso like tat.. words did not shay fully.. ii would try 2 shay everyting ii wanted 2 express without cuttin short, tinkin tat uu will understand even if ii shay onli a portion of wat ii wanted 2 shay.. 2 shay truthfully.. ii reali did feel tat ii m no longer stand an important position within uu.. 2 uu.. ii feel like ii was juz a normal fren... haiz..

THZ 4 EVERYTING.. II REALI APPRECIATE EVERYTING UU HAV DONE.. N.. IIM GLAD TAT II HAV UU AS A FREN... ii reali hope tat our frenship can last.. ii don reali noe wat ish derhx problem btween us.. it makes miie feel uncomfortable.. ii keep havin derhx idea tat ii had aready lost uu as a best fren.. ii admit tat iim weak.. iim sensitive.. n ii need sumone hu makes miie feel secured..

*ther may b sum misunderstandin cause due 2 mae ability of expressin through words ish lousy.. we will talk face to face 2 prevent any misunderstandin cause..